February 2012
8 posts
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Even my bruises ache with yesterdays. I’ve lost track of the days because there’s too many to see you again anyway. It doesn’t matter because you’re still there and I’m still here and I’ve said it a thousand times and each time it doesn’t get any easier and I’ve lost sense of everything now that you’re gone. I’m past the point of being sad, and now comes the anger. I’m angry at the ground for...
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I feel like there’s stains all over every part of me and I could live underwater and I could swim through salt and they’d never go away. They’re like a tattoo I never asked for and they spell out all the things I’ve done to ruin what you have. I hate you for getting under my skin and I hate myself even more for allowing you to. Someone needs to turn the lights off in my...
I don’t like spending too much time with you because its just
so much harder to leave.
And all these colors make me think of a part of you I miss.
I’d rather be in black and white.
I have grown so awfully and incredibly attached to the idea of never having to let you go and I’m afraid of never being able to say how I feel because
if I lose you, I’d lose a whole...
Some days I feel like the sun’s on my side. I feel like I can carry it around and drop it from the rooftops and watch it roll along the streets while everyone sleeps. And it would crash into buildings and light up the darkest places. I can hide it in the palms of my hands and seal it in an envelope the size of North America and sail it across the seas. And it’d burn up all the distance...
I talk about you like you put the stars in the sky. But it’s only because I’m pretty positive you do. After all you gave me the universe on my ceiling. And the lights coming in between the cracks in the blinds before I’m ready to go. I’d waste all my time. And I’d spend it all away if it was all spent away with you. I’d go bankrupt. I’d loan out minutes...
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I went stargazing last night in my room. And I think its the only place around here where you can see the stars. And I keep thinking if I lock the doors and keep the window closed tight, and I lay under enough blankets, I won’t ever have to leave.
Because every inch of me reminds me of you now. I’m not sure how it happened but I’m glad it did. Because I have someone to hold...
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I think you might be contagious. Because my knees are sore and my back is breaking and I’m almost positive one of these days I’m going to shatter to the ground if you don’t hold me together.
It’s funny how many ways I can be angry. I’m furious. I’m angry at them, at everyone. My myself, at her, for bringing me you. Except I can’t thank her enough. I have...